Nan, it's Lauren, I really miss you. It's been so long and I try to be strong but I can't help it. There's nights where I'll just sit up and cry... It was so cruel of God to take you from us but I guess your up within the angles now and no longer in pain. I know that I hardly visit you at the Crem and when I don't speak to you but that's only because everyone's there and I just want it to be me and you. I have so much to tell you with school and that i just really wished you was here for me to do that. Nan I really miss you and I love you millions.